Another checkmark

After much needless agonizing and nervousness this afternoon, I finally met with my human resources director to make the news known to her and to go over leave benefits and my plans for leave next year. I don't know why I was so nervous...probably because I've kept it in for so long. I shut the door to her office and before I even sat down, she said, "So I hear congrats are in order for you." Only two people knew--my two supervisors--so at least one of them spilled the beans. I'm not sure if they told only her (if so, not a big deal since HR has to keep stuff confidential), or if some others know, as well. Way to keep a secret, guys.

Anyway, I presented my plan to her and she thought I had things pretty well covered. As of right now, assuming no complications, I plan to work up until my due date, or my last day will be February 9, whichever comes first. That will allow me to return to the office in time for one of our most important Sundays of the year. We talked about a few other things I needed to know and she made some small talk about the baby, but that's about it. So, check that off the list. Now I just have to tell the rest of my co-workers (will do that early next week) and then it's all out in the open. I'm not looking forward to all the attention, plus I'm just nervous about how others around here will take the news...I don't know their personal situations to know if they're having trouble conceiving and are going to be secretly resentful of me. I don't want them to feel like I'm rubbing it in their faces or anything, though I think most people who know me would know that I'm not like that. I guess I'm just sensitive to people in that position and don't want to make things harder for them than it may already be.